self love

Hey you guys!

I haven't been feeling 100% since my body had started to catch up to the fact that I cut meat out of my diet. Since my body hasn't been doing well physically I didn't go to yoga for awhile. It started to hit me in yoga, and I was getting really light headed easily, not being able to do certain postures, and starting to black out, so the start of passing out.

Since that started happening, I was also starting to get sick more easily. I decided to no go for a few days so that I could rest, rehydrate, and start my iron pills. Now that I am feeling a lot better, I decided to go this morning, this way I could practice a little more before my 30 days are up, as well as sweat out whatever else has been making me not feel so good.

I've been getting really big on listening to my body, and respecting what it needs.

Today during practice, our instructor set the intention of figuring out what we do to harm ourselves. The idea of self harm, not physically, but mentally. Why are we hard on ourselves, what do we do to be hard on ourselves? She asked us these questions, as well as, what do we see when we look in the mirror? Do we say negative things? If so, what can we do, and how can we turn them into positive comments, and positive vibes towards ourselves, and how we treat ourselves.

"We're all beautiful people," Shaylynn our instructor said. That was what she left us with when she asked us to think about how we treat ourselves.

I have always been the person to be super hard on myself, always. No matter what it is, if it's a small thing that I really couldn't control, or a mistake. I have always taken the little things to heart and let them fester in my mind. I literally could, and still can let the little things get to me and destroy my whole day, and mood. I've been trying to let things go, because you can't control everything. If there was someway that you could control life and all the negative things that happen, trust me I would have figured it out by now. So this intention hit home for me. It really made me think about all the times, even years ago, when I was so hard on myself for no reason, and I let whatever it was that happened manifest itself in my mind for days, weeks, and years. Letting go is a huge part of life specifically right now, and learning to be able to let go. Seeing yourself for the incredible person that you are, and learning your purpose in life. After today, I decided to take myself for who I am, and not let myself be so hard on myself.

I think that this is also another key part in why I came home. Obviously I came home because there was so much negativity in my life back in Bellingham and I needed to get away from it, and hit restart. I feel like me coming home, was also part of me relearning who I am as a person, what I want in life, and what I want to do in life. I needed to learn to let go of things, and move on. Which to me is just a small piece of the game in being hard on myself mentally. I can't wait to take back what I have learned in practice, and about myself being back to my other home, so that I can live a happier healthier life.

<3 Love yourself.